Becoming Macejammick

 Every single action is constituted by an ever-increasing, finely tuned conflict of micro-interests.  Each part of my body is energetically made up of microparts, one fighting against the other. Muscular pain, radiational rib-sensations, knee irritations, chest hardenings, suffocations, stress, anger, sadness, depressiveness, inhumanization...  All sensations are sensations of physiological WAR. The inner-war is physio-spiritual.  Even my euphoric sensations, even my bliss is accomplished through sensed-perpetual strife.  Spiritual white flags are illusory. There is no escape. Buddha-Consciousness is not an escape from this, but an elimination of egotistical resentfulness. In contradiction to all massified-instincts, I choose to radically not resent the powers of Life and its passions. Divine Life the Destroyer of all things... I suffer to carry on the Traditional & Perennial torch of self-elimination. To eliminate all deceptiveness concerning this life. To clash against my own lie

There is no attaining the Truth without experimentation. There is no Truth without limitation.  These are the two core premises that inform me what the Truth is and anything around it. The process of attaining Truth is necessarily explorative, and exploration necessitates a process of becoming contingencies. It necessitates a process of becoming, rather than simply "being." To be is an existential absurdity. To become is to generate the steps towards the thing outside the absurdity of existence.  All becomings lead to an internal awareness of the contrast between division and unity, contingency and necessity.  All becomings are thus necessary. To become many things one should discipline their bodily processes unto self-mastery, and abandon all slavish tendencies and the wretched impulses of following the masses. For there is nothing more degrading to the creative Spirit of our bodily processes than to adhere in accordance to the borders imposed by the masses.  The Spirit only